My therian awaking

The path of the wolf:

It all started six years ago, looking back I´ve always been a little different than others in my age. Just six years ago, when I was 13, it was the second week of august, the night of Friday, I had a significant dream. It was about dolphins and how I've always liked them, something within me stirred, but until this summer I couldn´t comprehend it´s meaning. Before that night I never felt a special connection to any animal, but ever since this certain thing kept growing and slowly developed shape.

2005: (still far from understanding anything) I started developing a deep connection and longing towards dolphins. I wanted to understand them better, yearend to touch and swim with them. Yet my desires remained unfulfilled.
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2007: I started feeling incomplete; something was missing, something physical. Slowly the desire to have a tail awoke, but it was an alien feeling and completely cross to my love for dolphins, so I neglected it. Years passed and my inner connection with dolphins decreased. Despite this I focused more on them than ever, collecting pictures and reading about dolphins.

2010: Everything changed. Once again it was a dream, a dream where I was an animal, but against my likings it wasn´t swimming in the oceans, but running on paws, wolf paws. It was a snowy winter night in midst of a forest of firs. The view was bad the weather cold and merciless, I was seeking a pack. My efforts remained fruitless.
If I wouldn´t have been so fixed on dolphins I would have realized my true identity back then, but I was certain that I mustn´t turn my head in the wrong direction.

2011

February: About one month after the last dream a second one, even weirder one followed. Like all my dreams I was in a mundane situation (like all my dreams) but all of a sudden I jumped and landed on hands and legs. Like an animal I spurted around. The next morning I pondered about it for a little while but decided to ignore it.


March: A third dream followed, similar to the second one. Like before I started running like an animal. It was then that I realized that I could no longer ignore it. I started questioning the meaning of these messages but couldn´t find an answer.

June: Yet another dream, but this time clearer and more intense than ever. All I figured out was that I couldn´t possible run like that as a human, I tried, so I came to the conclusion that within my dreams I was an animal.

August: My last dream, once again from one-person perspective. I´m not entirely sure if I was a wolf. It was a nice summer there was no snow on the deserted ski region. I moved around explored that area, hoping to find another living soul. Once again nobody but a few birds kept me company.
I was close to discover my true self.






The day of awaking:

One week after this dream, on a weekend, I surfed the internet. Randomly I came upon a word called Furry, it yelled for my attention so I went to Wikipedia. When I read the article about this subculture it made `click´ in my head. At once I realized what I had felt these past years, everything I had felt, dreamt suddenly made sense. I still can´t describe that moment properly, it was incredible. From this moment I truly felt it, the wolf within me.

I am different from others, but never had I thought I was that much different. My own stupidity and ignorance annoyed me. I would have realized way earlier if I hadn´t been so focused on dolphins only.

This sudden discovery came with a load of new questions. One after the other I solved, I was convinced to be a furry but never managed to properly categorize myself. But now in September I read something about therianthropy, about people with a similar case to mine. My joy was great to see that I wasn´t the only one, and that there are other humans just like me, people who don´t only understand, but also accept me. So here I am, a therian seeking to find a deeper meaning of life.